OK, I have been a little out of the loop! I think the best excuse is, I have been working on my well being. This illness can consume you and everything you are, if you let it. This is my reason to all of you that have been so kind and supportive to me. I don’t want it to own me and if I talk about it all the time, it does just that. Well I won’t let it!
I do, however, want to say to all of you how grateful I am for your love and support. I can’t imagine how hard it must be for those who are not as lucky as me to have such a wonderful support team. You guys rock and my appreciation goes beyond these words.
I have been getting stronger and gaining some weight. I am a whopping 142 lbs. I am happy with this for now. It would be nice if I could add about 10-15 lbs of muscle. That would really put me back to my fighting weight.
I am on a new chemo that is making my hair fall out, lame. It is still there for now but I might have to buzz the crown to avoid looking like the middle aged man, that I am, trying too hard. I have always wanted to do the buzz thing but didn’t have the balls. Well who would know that the cancer would cause me to grow a set.
I have been starting to pick up some work again. It is great for me all though I am a little held back and taking it slow due to my ileostomy. For those that don’t know, here is a link to what that is.
I have one for the time being, knock on wood, until I have the next surgery. The plan is to get the liver tumors to the point where we can operate and leave enough liver for me to survive on. There are two bigger tumors and a lot of small lesions. At this point inoperable. I am continuing to have two systemic chemos every other week. One takes about 30 minutes at the hospital and the other is the one I go home with in a bottle and it last for 72 hours. In addition, I have the internal pump that my doctor is known for. We implanted that when the rectal tumor was removed. This we fill up every other week, as well, and it goes directly to the liver over the next two weeks. The good thing about this one is there are next to no side effects, at least that I feel.
I think this covers it for now. I can’t restate enough how much all the support means to me. I know I have slowed down on my updates but I haven’t stopped thinking about how lucky I am to have you guys on my side.